Conviction: It’s not not about me. Better yet, there’s no me, just Him.
Why?
There is no one greater.
Let me explain.
It was funny how today went by. I realized, it’s very possible to go through the day without thinking. Thinking as in, being aware of my own actions. I didn’t have an opinion of my actions. I didn’t think I needed to because I thought I knew what I was doing, and God was “guiding” me. Yet, today, it was a day filled with disobedience. All the time, I realize, I fail. I fail, as in, I cannot do anything with passion and show full potential without Him working in me. It’s interesting how this constant struggle of the flesh and the Spirit helps me to be humble everyday. I realize everyday, yes, we have choices we can make to make situations different, but regardless of our choices, God knows, and He is able to handle things that are not in our hands. Even the things that we can do ourselves, I realized, I cannot do it. Without the Spirit, life really is meaningless. Therefore, because we cannot do anything without God, we should be humbled at His feet. We don’t. Unfortunately. Why? Because we have pride. It’s our pride that makes us sin and disobey God. In the end, fortunately, God shows us that we are weak and hopeless without Him. He gives us space, but doesn’t leave us completely. In that time, you realize, He is greater than you, and you realize that He is sovereign. Not you.
Why was I convicted?
Love. Loving others is the hardest thing for humans because we have too much pride. “Why do I have to love this person when this person is not treating me right? Why do I have to be the nice one all the time? I’ll be the bigger person.” NO. God is bigger. God is always the person who loves us when we do not respect Him. God is the one who is so gentle and kind to us. Yet, we go to others and say that? Who are we to say that another person, who is God’s creation, is less than us? Who are we to think that we even DESERVE to have this kind of love? Let us be humble. We get all the love we can ever get from God, and yet, we want more from people. We are ALL made perfect in the image of God, and we are looked as righteous through the blood of Christ. Let us not think it is us, ourselves, that makes us look perfect or righteous because if we really look at ourselves without Christ, we’re all filthy.
Brothers and Sisters, let us really be humble before the Lord and know how glorious He is.
“I pray that out of his glorious richeshe may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being,so that Christ may dwell in your heartsthrough faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deepis the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his powerthat is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”-Ephesians 3:16-21
It’s really interesting how people can just think they can look like they care for a day or two, and then just turn away and pretend not to know anything. Sigh. Like I never knew this, right?.. Every time, this happens, and yet, I still fall for the same superficial actions. And yet, I have nothing to say because God looks at me the same way, and yet, He still loves me. Even though I’m not God, God commanded me to love, and through the Spirit, I will. It’s just sad how they have to make it so hard.. But I know, this is my pride and flesh talking, so I have to get rid of my bitterness. Hopefully, from now on, I’ll be able to open up to only whoever I KNOW I can trust. I realized once again that people always fail, but not God.
It’s also very interesting how people can really be so mean. o.o. i mean i know there are worse people, but still.. goodness. The way people talk, i mean, come on, really? You really want to say things that way? You really want to say those things? Well, youre cool. for sure. Sigh.. I should have just stayed at GCC peacefully studying there and just transferring out to make wonderful relationships…of course there are many relationships I am thankful for right now.. but..really, there are always going to be people like these.. ahh well…what can i do? nothing, but be humble and love…sigh.. this post is so sinful..XD
but… I fail so many times to God too. God is probably shaking his head. haha. But this is why I need Him. Because I know that I still have my flesh, and I need His Spirit continuously moving in my heart.. Such a hard thing to do: love. Anyway, you, who reading this post, just wasted 5 min. Sorry about that:)
(via safeingrace)
You know in your heart when things are starting to crumble down. Yet, you also know you can’t do anything about it. I know. God is sovereign, and His plan is better than mine. Yet, sometimes, I can’t help but to dread what is coming. Sometimes, in order for God’s plan to continue, there has to be a struggle somewhere in life. I’ve had my share. But I’m guessing God needs to break me and build me more. This is my hardest struggle yet.
God, would you take all of this, because i can’t do anything, and would you bring hope and peace somewhere in this dark room I am closed up in? I know that you are good and you love me infinitely. I trust in your plan. No matter what happens, I will follow you.
is so ridiculously hurting. I wonder if this is how God felt when a church is broken. Or when the disciples, who were His “family”, denies him.
(Source: invenitt)
I am so so weak. I live in the flesh with sin. i live with temptations and challenges in this world. What people consider pretty, what people consider success, what people consider the best personality, and what people consider love is all completely different from what God wants. And yet, to a person that lives in the flesh, what matters is what other people think. That’s why I have to worry and care about my looks, my personality, my love, and my asldhv;aoherglkshdhadfobaklsdghadfh rubbish. I always think I am not attractive, I do not have a great personality, I cannot love like other people do with their boyfriends, I cannot party and have fun like other college students do, and I do not fit in with anyone because I’m weird. My body size is not “perfect” and I am not worth it to a certain man that I like.
WHY DO YOU CARE?!
It is GOD who loves YOU. It is GOD who has sacrificed EVERYTHING for YOU. It is GOD who has given YOU everything. It is GOD who has gone through so much suffering and persecution for YOU. So why is it that we worry so much about these garbage? I know. It’s hard. But trust me. Love yourself if you want to be loved. When you learn to love yourself, you learn to love other people. why? Because you are made in the image of God. When you love your image of Christ, then you know that you are lovable because Christ has died for you. He has made YOU worthy. He has made YOU for His glory! So hey! Stop being depressed, stop self-pitying yourself because that’s just your pride saying that God cannot fill you, that His love is unfulfilling. He loves you so much. His love is never failing, and His love is never ending. So rejoice in His love!:)
In the quiet and beauty of natures light, in the stillness of it’s glow, I know that You are God. In the moments of my desperation, when I call out for Your presence, I find that I am restored. You are my only sure thing, amongst a world filled with people that fall, fade and forget daily- You remain.. Pure, steadfast and true, You remain. Above all, as You were trialled, tormented and turned upon .. You were faced with a choice. As You were beaten, battered and bruised.. You were faced with a choice. And for the very moments in which I would be found in the quiet and stillness, in need of Your presence.. You withstood the test of time, upon that cross- and You remained. How blessed I am Father, that Your sacrifice was given, that You willingly remained- knowing I can never repay You. I am forever humbled by Your love.
(Source: hope-movement)
